sjsmallfield
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The thoughts and prayers of myself and family are with you guys. Continue to stand strong my friend!
Please say a prayer for my wife and son...
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My son died at 10:00PM on Sunday at Cedars Sinai hospital.
He was life-flighted there from the Antelope Valley Hospital NICU after the doctor determined that he had a perforated bowel which they could not operate on at Antelope Valley Hospital.
Saturday, as he was coming up on one week, we were finally starting to think that he might be through the worst of it.
Sunday morning when we came in, his heart rate was pegged at one pulse, which wasn't normal and they couldn't get blood pressure or blood oxygen concentration levels from any of his limbs.
The doctor took lateral x-rays and saw the air from the perforation.
The doctor told me then that the prognosis wasn't good and when I look back on it now, I think I knew Sunday morning, before they even did the x-rays, that it was really bad. His body was restricting blood flow to his critical organs and I knew that only happens when you have hypothermia, you're in shock or bleeding heavily. He didn't have hypothermia and nothing happened that would have caused him to go into shock, and with the bowel perforation, that narrowed it down pretty quickly.
When I saw him after they got him to Cedars Sinai, it was obvious that he had been bleeding internally during the ride over and the doctors said that the infection he had from the gut bacteria was making his blood too acidic and they probably couldn't recover him.
God bless them, they still took him to the operating room and tried, but he arrested as soon as they got him there. They spent 30 minutes trying to revive him in the OR before they came to us with the recommendation to remove his ventilator.
I knew that at that point, anything they did to try to revive him would just make him suffer longer and even if they had managed to fully revive him, the lack of oxygen and acid in his blood would have crippled him mentally and probably physically.
Explaining that to my wife wasn't so easy, but she understood it and agreed that it was the right thing for our boy.
We finally got to see him without his ventilator and got spend time with him outside of the incubator for the first time.
My boy is so handsome.
He had a strong will and a strong heart, but his little body just wasn't ready yet.
We're burying him in the cemetery at Kernville, California. His eight days on this earth were full of noise and light and commotion and I wanted him to be some place where he could hear the wind blow and the birds call and see the stars at night and have some peace.
He's near enough that we can visit him regularly and when I go up to hunt, I can stop by and see him on the way up.
I want to thank all of you for the prayers and support. Please hug your kids and tell them how much you love them.
He was life-flighted there from the Antelope Valley Hospital NICU after the doctor determined that he had a perforated bowel which they could not operate on at Antelope Valley Hospital.
Saturday, as he was coming up on one week, we were finally starting to think that he might be through the worst of it.
Sunday morning when we came in, his heart rate was pegged at one pulse, which wasn't normal and they couldn't get blood pressure or blood oxygen concentration levels from any of his limbs.
The doctor took lateral x-rays and saw the air from the perforation.
The doctor told me then that the prognosis wasn't good and when I look back on it now, I think I knew Sunday morning, before they even did the x-rays, that it was really bad. His body was restricting blood flow to his critical organs and I knew that only happens when you have hypothermia, you're in shock or bleeding heavily. He didn't have hypothermia and nothing happened that would have caused him to go into shock, and with the bowel perforation, that narrowed it down pretty quickly.
When I saw him after they got him to Cedars Sinai, it was obvious that he had been bleeding internally during the ride over and the doctors said that the infection he had from the gut bacteria was making his blood too acidic and they probably couldn't recover him.
God bless them, they still took him to the operating room and tried, but he arrested as soon as they got him there. They spent 30 minutes trying to revive him in the OR before they came to us with the recommendation to remove his ventilator.
I knew that at that point, anything they did to try to revive him would just make him suffer longer and even if they had managed to fully revive him, the lack of oxygen and acid in his blood would have crippled him mentally and probably physically.
Explaining that to my wife wasn't so easy, but she understood it and agreed that it was the right thing for our boy.
We finally got to see him without his ventilator and got spend time with him outside of the incubator for the first time.
My boy is so handsome.
He had a strong will and a strong heart, but his little body just wasn't ready yet.
We're burying him in the cemetery at Kernville, California. His eight days on this earth were full of noise and light and commotion and I wanted him to be some place where he could hear the wind blow and the birds call and see the stars at night and have some peace.
He's near enough that we can visit him regularly and when I go up to hunt, I can stop by and see him on the way up.
I want to thank all of you for the prayers and support. Please hug your kids and tell them how much you love them.
Kevin Root
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I'm so sorry to hear about your loss and the pain you are surly feeling. You and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers. I'll continue to do so. Kernville and up into those mountains and wilderness above is a beautiful place. I hope the coming days ahead will bring peace, comfort and healing to you and your family during this very difficult time.
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dustin ray
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Im vary sorry to here of your lose. Having lost a son myself i fell your pain be strong my friend your wife needs you more then ever. And i can tell you there is hope but only time will heal your pain.I to will continue to keep your family i my prayers.
DryFlyGuy
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JMSZ,
I don't even know what to say. I've typed multiple paragraphs and then just delete them because I am a total stranger & a nobody to you, but I just want to somehow say something that will help to comfort you and your grieving wife. I can't even swallow the apple that is stuck in my throat thinking about your sweet son. I'm going to hug my kids a little tighter and be a little more available to them because I know you would give anything for that chance right now.
God bless.
I don't even know what to say. I've typed multiple paragraphs and then just delete them because I am a total stranger & a nobody to you, but I just want to somehow say something that will help to comfort you and your grieving wife. I can't even swallow the apple that is stuck in my throat thinking about your sweet son. I'm going to hug my kids a little tighter and be a little more available to them because I know you would give anything for that chance right now.
God bless.
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ssliger
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I am very sorry for your loss. I lost a son at birth 13 years ago. If you need anything, let me know. I will continue to keep your family in my prayers.
Bitterroot Bulls
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So sorry, my friend.
Your post above was both terribly sad and profoundly wonderful. I am glad you had those last beautiful moments with your son.
My prayers are doubled, again.
Your post above was both terribly sad and profoundly wonderful. I am glad you had those last beautiful moments with your son.
My prayers are doubled, again.
sjsmallfield
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Very sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to imagine. All in my family will be praying for you and your wife. Stay strong my friend!
Timberstalker
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I can't imagine going through that, I am very sorry for you and your wife. Stories like this break my heart, I hope for good things to come for you both in the future.
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Musket Man
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God must have something very important up above he needed him for so soon. I like to think everything happens for a reason but many times I cant see it. I dont know what else to say but i'll be thinking of and praying for you guys.
25contender
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I dont know you but children are a true gift from God. There is not much solace loosing a child. I hope you will take comfort knowing your son is is Gods hands. My wife and I have sent a prayer for your son and family.....Mark
I just wanted to thank everyone on this forum again for the prayers and words of support.
I can't describe how something as simple as reading your words here helped, most of all in just not feeling so all alone.
It wasn't feeling alone like I wanted attention, but, wanting to do something but not being able to do anything. The world just closes in.
I know that my son is at peace and he is in a beautiful place, both here on earth and in heaven.
Thank you all again.
I can't describe how something as simple as reading your words here helped, most of all in just not feeling so all alone.
It wasn't feeling alone like I wanted attention, but, wanting to do something but not being able to do anything. The world just closes in.
I know that my son is at peace and he is in a beautiful place, both here on earth and in heaven.
Thank you all again.